Devious, adjective: showing a skillful use of underhanded tactics to achieve goals; (of a route or journey) longer and less direct than the most straightforward way.
Frown, verb [no
object] furrow one's brow in an expression of disapproval, displeasure, or
concentration; (frown on/upon) disapprove of; noun: a facial expression or look
characterized by a furrowing of one's brows.
Venomous, adjective:
(of animals, especially snakes, or their parts) secreting venom; capable of
injecting venom by means of a bite or sting; (of a person or their behavior)
full of malice or spite.
“Question if you still love what you once loved in the way you thought you loved it.” -DanielleLaPorte
One Bag of M&M's
Brown,
blue, red, yellow, green, and orange M&M’s spread across my desk. I sort the
colors into small piles. The M&M’s
are plain, no peanuts. I begin to eat
them by color. They all taste the same. There is no reason for sorting them. I’m
trying to look busy while I listen to my co-worker’s conversation in the cubbie
adjacent to mine. They could see me if they look over the cubicle, but I can’t
see them.
I’m eating the pile of red M&M’s. I don’t trust
one of the girls. I talk to her from
time to time, but mostly about something that happened to her. I knew anything I shared with her would be
gossip by tomorrow. I know it is devious to eavesdrop , but they are talking about a girl we used to work with
that got caught having an affair. When
she got busted, she immediately went into her husband’s phone and found out he
too had something on the side. She began verbally threating the girl to stay
away from her husband and their family. Things escalated from there and a restraining
order was filed by the wife against the husband’s girlfriend. This made
me frown, because wasn't the wife having an affair too, it was a little much, until I heard the name of the husband, then I felt a flush of
panic.
I’m eating the pile of green M&M’s. I picked up my phone and flipped through my
text messages and read his messages, “I love you.” “I miss you.” “Can we meet for coffee?” Then more that I would rather not mention. Are these girls venomous
enough to be saying this where I can hear??? Do they connect me and him? No one has called me. No wife has called me. No restraining order has been sent to
me. I didn’t know he was married.
I’m eating the pile of yellow M&M’s. We met in a crowded event, by accident. I had to hug up close to him to let someone
pass and to make it a little less awkward I introduced myself, and he was nice
enough to make a joke of it, by saying he saw me checking him out and there was
no way he was going to let me off easy.
I told him I was expected with my friends and he said his loss and I
walked away. Later in the night the
crowd died down and he bought me a drink and we talked for a while and he got
my number. This was about six months
ago.
I’m eating the pile of orange M&M’s. I did like him, but I knew I didn’t love
him. He would always ask me if he could
kiss me, at first this was endearing, but kissing never became relaxed. This little oddity of his, I accepted. Looking back and knowing now he had other
girlfriends and a wife, well, perhaps that explained his actions. I caught myself seeing other oddities about
his behavior and I know this is where a relationship begins to deteriorate for
me. The flaws; I begin to see nothing but
flaws.
I’m eating the pile of blue M&M’s. I’m conflicted. Should I tell my co-workers about my affair
with this married man and confess before they continue to harass me, but I hear
their voices fade as they walk away. If
the conversation was intentional, they did their damage. I say nothing and I delete all the messages
and forget the whole affair. If I ever
thought I might love him, now I know I would never love him.
I’m eating the pile of brown M&M’s. Appropriate, because nothing exciting happens when you eat brown M&M’s.
Guess you need to get another bag and start again!
ReplyDeletethanks for stopping by. Another bag? Well maybe tomorrow!
Deletethis is rather wrenching
ReplyDeletelove the final sentence
cheers
jzb
I'm sure this sort of thing happens all the time, I get moody around Feb 14th and I write anti- love stories.
DeleteThanks for stopping by!
Interesting story!
ReplyDeleteYou should've saved the green M&M's until the end. That's what I do. Or red. Remember when there used to be dark brown and light brown? Now there are just brown. I think this is somehow a microcosm of my life, though how I'm not sure.
Ahhh yes where are the light brown M&M's??? The same logic to eat one before the other was random. And as we all know by the movie "The wedding planner" the brown ones are the only ones worth eating because they do not contain color additives. My favorite is the red. What does that say about me? perhaps if red dye is poison, I'm taking that dare and eat them anyway!!
Deletegreat story
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading!
DeleteI like the way you eat through this story, though I always liked the brown M&Ms best.
ReplyDeleteCool! thanks for stoping by!
DeleteThis is a delightful tale well told. However M & Ms should be eaten from least favourite to most favourite as the best must be saved until last.
ReplyDeleteThanks!
DeleteRe: your comment at my post - Short subjects like this are about halfway toward being poetry anyway. So don't sell yourself short by thinking you can't do it.
ReplyDeleteIn case you missed Kristjaan's reply, I'm copying it below.
Cheers!
JzB
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Daily Panic ... even you can write poetry. Maybe it's worth a try to write haiku. Feel free to visit: http://chevrefeuillescarpediem.blogspot.com to get some information about haiku. I think you can write poetry ... just give it a try.
Candy treats - i love this trip through office Wonderland...from the quote to the final eat me M&M...
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